My Thoughts

All of us hate having problem don't we?
I don't know why it exist also in the first place
Problems only lead to more problems
Then whats the use of having problems then?
It only mess up our lives and gives us constant stress and pressure
These stress and pressure may lead to hypertension, heart attack or even BOTH!
Then you'll have more problem at hand....AGAIN
Can't life be simple?
Actually problems can be avoided
But there are certain people out there who just loves seeing people in trouble
I mean do you really think that those convicted criminal who was sentence to jail or death
Are really guilty?They could be frame for something they have not done
Ohh....this world is really fond of that
It also applies to our lives
But at a lower degree of course =)
Giving up when obstacle arises is the best way to hide your problems
Cause you don't have to face it and everything seems normal and good
But actually it ISN''T
Those problems are actually accumulating day by day
Its like an angry boy
Who keeps his anger inside himself
With no one to turn too or rely on
Until the whole world is against him
This boy will explode one day
Who knows what he might be capable of
You might be thinking how would I know?
Of course I would
Because I used to be that boy

Have you ever failed so badly in life, you sometimes feel like giving up?

I have....MANY times

But everything.....

I don't know-lah

It seems like something tends to pick me up and to carry on

Throughout my life

I always thought that I didn't have anyone to turn too

Keeping all my problems and fears to myself

No one thought me how to open up

No one thought me how to express myself

And no one thought me how to share my problems

But along my journey in life

I've learn that everything you have, has to be shared

Wealth, happiness, sadness, knowledge, fears, opinions, life and especially love

I always thought that all these above are suppose to be for myself only

I never even had the slightest idea of sharing what seems to be sad and bad with anyone

I thought that all of these are only for me. myself and I

Who would want to share your sadness and trouble right?

But I was so WRONG!

I manage to live for 17 years+

Because someone always pick me up

Anyone could pick you up when you fall down

But the hardest part would be starting to get going and keep that momentum running

Everything in life must be shared

Its just that you have to choose the right person to share them with

Cause there are many people out there who is willing to hear

Not everyone is a bastard

There are kind souls out there

Willing to listen to you and share your problem

So just remember that

Though problems are heavy

But when shared

It becomes lighter

Because the load is divided by two or more people =)

A Friend is someone who walks in, when everybody walks out of your life

You can know who are your true friends when you face problems

And HEY!problems isn't all bad after all ; )

You just have to choose the right person to talk too, thats all!

Its that simple =)

Oh ya...may I suggest someone that you might find a person who listens, cares, loves, understand and most importantly.....

Someone whos DOESN'T judge you

Ohh...your right

No man or women such type exist

But I know one

Who is Merciful and Loves us very much

His name is God

He has a son too

His name is Jesus Christ

Their available 24/7 for counselling and listening

Anytime, anywhere

Just sit down silently and pray ; )

p/s: This post is dedicated to those who have picked me up when I fall down. Never gave up on me although i already gave up on myself and always there for me in one way or another~~~ =)


(Those picture not here is because I don't have a picture of you)

Thank you so much and............................

I LOVE YOU

=) *peace*

Malacca Boleh!

Malacca has recently officiated a school for pregnant teens in Malacca
It can hold 40 students(female of course) and they provide education in the morning and krafwork and parenting skills in the evening
It also provide dorms for their students
All races and religion are welcome
Priority is given to people in malacca but will open to other state is there is vacancies
Do not worry about the facilities and the quality of this school because Malacca government has allocated 500 thousand ringgit for this

The Star online qouted this as Hope For Pregnant Teens
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2010/9/2/nation/6967031&sec=nation

I was really happy when I heard about this project...
Many people including NGO and the public disagree about this programme because they feel that it is inviting and encouraging pre-marital sex or sex outside the wedlock
I agree with their view about this but then again shouldn't we have a look at a greater aspect and think outside the box?

Let me say that I'm against pre-marital sex because sex outside marriage is wrong for the Catholic faith and also other religion

You might be wondering why in the hell that I'm happy about this project and support it
Its because I feel that by this way...those who have made mistakes in their lives will be given another chance to redeem themselves and also give the little cute baby hope to live
By this project, I believe that abortion and baby dumping cases would reduce tremendously
Although this kind of school might not be suitable for our custom which is the East
But I really hope and pray that the public will be more open to accept this so that teens who made mistakes and are in trauma may find peace and support from this project
Which one of us have not make mistakes in our lives?
What really makes us human and strong is not by condemming others but show our support and encouragement towards them
All of us should give pregnant teen girls another chance to live their life and bring up their baby properly and correctly
This school also provides couselling and guidance which is fantastic because pregnant teens might be in trauma after falling to honour their families name or her boyfriend leave her to bring up the baby all alone

This might be a voodoo to our society and culture
But I urge all of you (the society)  to accept this project as a way for these teens to turn into a new leaf and this project is also for the better good of mankind

What would you rather see?
A dead infant in a dustbin?
Or a pregnant teen seeking education and skills to bring up her baby and also giving her baby a chance to live
I would also urge pregnant teens to seek PROFESSIONAL help when dealing with these kind of cases because your friends might not be educate to educate you or advise you on these
For Christians you can always seek help from you local Priest or Pastor
For Muslim you can seek help from your Utaz
For those who prefer local support group then you can check out this website
http://www.wao.org.my/

But as I said I disagree with pre-marital sex so I hope that our country Malaysia shall educate youths on Sex and the importance of it by Sex Education in schools

"Prevention is better then cure"

This post is dedicated to You

I wrote this cause I didn't have anything else to write
and she memang very perasan de...so she ask me to write about her =p

Hmmm....I think I first saw her was at cathecism(sunday school)
But knowing that I'm such a shy person~~~
I didn't put any concern to it
Cause my life wasn't in path at that time also
Okay...enough about me ^^

I think I first met her or communicate with her through sms
I asked her to attend a camp organised my MAJODI
She wasn't able to attend

Actually I just remember that in my confirmation camp, she was in the same group as me XD
So during the camp the was this game called Captain Ball
To those who know what I'm talking about  [=)]
If  you don't know...err....well too bad... =P
Here's the basic
Only girls can score =.="
When comes to sports I"m abit competitive
I feel that when playing a game you gotta give your best
Unless your playing for leisure
So...I remembered that I was like ask her to run here~~run there~~jump~~don't just stand there move!!
Hahahahahahaha~~~I really put her under alot of pressure...Hahahaha

She was also very mysterious and kinda hard to figure out
So as time passes by...
As our friendship grew
I realize that shes actually a very nice, supportive and strong person or girl^^

What surprises me the most is her honesty
She is very straight forward when talking about herself
You know what I mean~~~
We usually won't tell people that we just met about or problems and weaknesses
But she did
and because of that our friendship grew stronger day by day
She's really a sporting, out going, funny, caring and not forgetting crazy!! =)
She's really obsess with this animal which I caught...
But too bad....its freeeeee~~~ =D

So yesterday we hang out together at DP for dinner then Jonker for later
I have this muslim friend who was fasting
He could wait and decide a place to eat
But SHE...who is not fasting...can wait to eat xD
Memang babi...^^
Later that day
We walk to Jonker
If  the gang followed her direction then we'll probably end up at Alor Gajah....Trust me....xD

So we've reached Jonker...after walking here and there..
Forcing me to eat the potatoe on a stick
I guess she was shy to eat alone cause later people might think she's greedy or something *which she is* ^^
She has this son...the dude who was fasting
She told me and my friends go ahead first cause she want to buy some bangle or something like that
So her son....ask me where is she going...
I said don't know...maybe buy Pan&$
When she came back...
She bullied him as usual...saying
"How could u be so perverted"
When She tengah pakat with me to kenakan him...XD

Later my friend...Matphew(by Joo Sing) ^^
Was hungry...but put the blame on me...hahaha
We entered a shop to have a drink
Her friend need to go back asap
So she left the shop
We(the gang) was abit delay
So we lost her
For the first time in my life...
I see Her so terrified and scared..
She didnt talk or laugh or smile which she ALWAYS DO!
Pucat siot!

But everything return to normal =)

Oh ya...she's really a good dancer...AMAZING!!

I don't know if I've been a good friend towards her
But certainly she has been really good to me =)

So I hope I can show my appreciation of our friendship through this post.... =)

The headlines of the newspaper recently has only been about baby dumping, baby dumping and more baby dumping

Since 2005...the cases of baby dumping has reach over 498 cases IN Malaysia ONLY


How can someone have the heart of dumping their own flesh and blood

Could it be all of these happening because of the lack of exposure in sex?
Which some people might immediately think that sex only means two people or move engaging in a sexual act
But actually sex could mean alot of things
For example..it could mean gender of someone

Our society have this negative mind set on everything
Our society are also judgemental
Who haven't make a mistake in their lives?
Yes the girl was wrong to even have sex in the first place
Maybe it was peer pressure from her boyfriend or maybe the guy said that do not fear as I will be responsible of anything that may happen to you
But when the time comes
He chicken out and left her all alone
She panic and worried
Thinking of the ways to bring up this baby as simple as possible
But everytime she comes up with a solution
It back fires in the end

Then she'll start to think of people's opinion on her and especially her family's name and honour
All sorts of negative stuff might go through her head at one period

And so.........she thought the simplest solution is to dump the baby...
Since abortion needs both parties to agree to abort the baby
She got no where to turn
If she tell her parents
Her parents might lodge a police report and her "lover" might be charge with statutory rape
She's afraid to tell her teachers..cause her teachers will inform her parents and the same thing will happen when they decide to make a police report and even worse she'll be kick out of school

So who does she turns to??her friends
And her friends being an "intelligent counsellor" will tell her all sorts of ways to keep this pregnancy a secret
One of the way?
DUMP THE BABY

I'm really against abortion and baby dumping
For me...Only God can decide who to die and who to live
Who are we to play god and decides to end that innocent childs life?
Everyone deserve a chance to live their life even though they might be handicap or mentally disable
Because every life give to us is a blessing
Some might say that God are punishing them by getting the girl pregnant
Let me say that you are terribly wrong

You think that way because you do not know of the consequence of  having pre-marital sex

You might say that scientist have created contraceptive to prevent pregnancy
But no matter what religion you are..
YOUR RELIGION FORBIDS SEX OUT OF THE WEDLOCK

Sex is a holy thing..told to me by a good friend of  mine
Sex is give by God to reproduce human kind
So do not treat sex as an entertaiment in your life
Because it might be too late to regret your action
And you'll be living with this guilt for the rest of your life!
With a guilty conscience scared at your heart


So I sincerely ask you to think twice before having sex since I've already told you of the consequences of having pre-marital sex

It is not up to us to choose who to live and who to die
Everyone deserve a chance to live their life

Imagine if your mother decided to abort or dump was YOU!


You won't be alive right now to read this blog and experience the wonders that God have for us

Many married couples have been married for many years and the wife can't conceive

Sometimes their even desperate to have a child

So consider giving this child your about to abort or dump a chance to live and give it to these couples

I'm very sure that they will be very grateful and take full care of your baby

Please join me daily to pray for the stop of abortion and baby dumping around the world

Amen

The time will come to see how Strong you are

The time will come where your faith will be tested

That is the time where u see how strong is your faith and how much you put your trust in God

Stay strong and believe that God will always be there for you

I realize how sensitive my soul was when my friends talk about the Ouija Board

I don't know why but I kept shivering after talking about that game..although I didn't play it

But thanks to all the people who was concern about me and was there for me when I was weak..

Thank you so much and I really do appreciate your concern alot

Just a reminder that The Catholic Church FORBIDS  any communication with the outside world

This is a living testimony
The person who play this Ouija Board game thought it was funny and fun at first
Then only the realize that their communicating with the evil spirits
And to those who thinks its the Holy Spirit controlling this games


U are WRONG..and please seek forgiveness from God cause by playing this game your like opening a gate to hell...So repent while there is still time
and don't repeat your mistakes

And to those who haven't played this game


DO NOT
I repeat
DO NOT TRY TO PLAY THIS GAME CAUSE ITS NOT FUNNY OR COOL


If you been that your faith is weak all of the sudden and you are being terrified by the evil spirits
Read this verse 

Jeremiah 29:11


May God be with you always 

A New Beginning

Hmmm

Maybe my friends has heard this like maybe a "thousand" times about me transforming myself

In terms of being lazy and obviously being a bit on d chubby side

Yea...I know...many people have been saying 

"Wow!!Jameson!!Your fat!"

Well it didn't help me in any term except making myself feel bad...

Hahaha...but its good in a way

I realise that I gotta lose weight and start exercising to archive my desired body...hehehe

But thats not only it

There are many more to it

Like research found that guys who think that their on a chubby side feels less confident about themselfs

Well I say that bullshit!!

Cause we build our confidence no matter how skinny or fat we are

Another reason is to improve my back posture and reduce my back pains

Basically that the main factor i guess...hahaha

So!!starting today!!

I'll shall need your helps Matthew Sim and Foo Joa Wee

(I knoe your gonna read this =) )

in reminding me on my mission...

We can do this together Joa Wee(no offence la..but memang u said want to build body for next year) ^^

For our long beach trip next year!

                                                        (Left)Matthew, Me, Foo
p/s Jordan Foo don't fang fei kei again on this long beach trip sial like how u did it to d Penang trip...

Ohh!!!I forgotten that Legion Camp is today...

So you guys gotta forgive me and let me start next monday on the diets ya =)

The reason I wrote Prayer To Know One's Vocation(the link is below)
http://je-re-mi-ah-tan.blogspot.com/2010/07/prayer-to-know-ones-vocation-lord-jesus_1173.html

I felt that this prayer written by Bishop James Chan
This prayer was in a card form give to me by Fr.Christoper Lee


If you think that you might have a calling from God and your uncertain
and u have no direction in what to do and when you talk about this to your friends and your friends say pray and ask for His guidance

This prayer might really help you

Many people are afraid when they feel that they might have a calling from God
Including me. Some part of me was really happy that I might be called by God to serve Him
It was a great honuor and privilege if I was serving God as a priest or religious life

And most part of me was terrified and really scared
I was so uncertain about myself and this calling
Many thought came to my mind
Some reasons are

• I'm not holy and i'm always sinning...
• I'm not fit to be in the religious life
• I would be a bad example for others(since many people look up to priest and layman)
• II need a companion cause I get bored easily
• I want to get MARRIED

Then I realise that many of the "reasons" I have are actually EXCUSES because I was afraid to commit myself and entire life to God
I realise that I can give God a thousand excuses why I can't let Him use me as an intrument of His church
I actually should give a thousand reasons why I should and can let God make me an instrument of His church

So to those who think they might have a calling from God and u feel that you are unworthy or afraid
Trust me dear brothers and sisters
That God doesn't look upon our sins because He is Merciful and Loving
He has a plan for us all...
So do not be afraid to follow God and be his disciple
He has a plan for us all

Prayer To Know One's Vocation

Lord Jesus Christ

you are the way

the truth and the life

In your infinite love

you made the plan of life

and for my own life

from all eternity

Show me this plan

that I may do God's will

for my salvation

and the salvation of others

If You wish me to become

a priest or religious

or to enter the married state

I am ready and eager 

to do your will 

and follow your call

Only give me strength

and grace that 

I may always do what

is pleasing to you

AMEN

                                                                                                      imprematur:+ Bishop James Chan, D.D.

Dilemma I guess

So many things are going through my head right now
Actually I'm a bit troubled by all these problems

My mom went to d Parent-Teachers day to collect my report card
I found out that I failed 6 out of 10 subjects
I am so bloody worried right now about my future
What the hell am I going to do with my life with this kind of results
Plus my mom was extremely upset with my results
I really feel very bad
So she decided to take away my broadband meaning I can't on9 as often as I used too
I guess it is good also lah....so I can start to concentrate on my studies already
Time is really running out and I really need to run those books for the sake of my future and my mom
She sacrificed so much for me and my family
I got to repay her some how

Legion of Mary camp is coming and my friend aka president (Glenn Jude Kang)
asked me to give a talk
He'll give me a session around one and half hours
I was over joyed and was very anxious for this moment to come
Cause I feel that one day I want to be a speaker to tell the world what the Lord has done for me
I feel the urge to spread the good news to everyone
But some how I feel that I shouldn't give a talk because I'm not ready and i don't know what to say
I feel that my talk must motivate, inspire, touch and change people lives
Or maybe their perception towards life, the world, and their religion
Like how other speakers have open my eyes wide
example Jude Antoine, Sherman Kuek, Adrian Ng, Brother B, Brother Ambrose, Bro. Mic and many more
The have dedicated their life to God and for a good clause

Finally I think I might be falling for a girl
I know its the worst time possible
SPM is coming
And I don't like falling in love cause it will make me lose focus on everything and I'll be in a dazzle for a long time
I think the best is not to think about her and focus on my SPM

Finally

JESUS LOVES YOU

A mix of reaction

I set my alarm at 6.15 am twice and at 6.20 three times, 6.25 twice today and i still woke up at 7am
I manage to leave my house at 7.15 (ard there)
Obviously I was going to be damn late for school
So i quickly rode  my bike...then i reach the traffic light...

I don't know what made me do this...
But the clouds turn dark
But I some how really hoped that it will rain
Maybe I hope so that I wont be caught as late............I guess XD
True enough....It rained in 2 minutes
Damn...
So I decided to find shelter at a Shell petrol station...
I was wet but not soaking wet...
And I was abit hungry too
So I decided to enter d convenient store
I was looking for some chocolates
then I went to the counter
I picked up a black box
I thought it was chocolate
Then I wonder to myself that this was maybe a new brand or something
So I started to check it out to figure where was it from
Then I said "SHIT"
ITS A BOX OF CONDOM!!!


I was so embarrass!!!and I was wearing my uniform...
SO i quickly put it back
The uncle was staring at me man....damn!!!

PJK was canceled...waste my time bring my boots...

Attended Legion of Mary meeting
Bro.Ambrose gave a talk which really struck me


"Preach"
"If necessary talk"


He said that this was words from St.Francis of Asisi
Ponder on those words....
I'll tell its meaning later

When I wanted to leave school to go mahkota to help out with the fencing international competition
Bro.Ambrose stop me and gave me a ROSARY
It was from the holy land (jerusalem)and blessed
The rosary was really nice...will upload d picture soon enough

When I went Mahkota I saw IVY and STEF...
Ivy being a kind soul bought me a muffin from Kenny rogers

thats all la...I'm so tired...nights people

Cham

I realize that my results is very bad..
actually I didnt just realise it recently
I knew it all along XD
But I don't know why I'm not doing anything

Kinda worried about my future
I want to a Chemist and I realize that it will be a struggle
I don't really know what I want to do yet...but I like works that got to do with working in a laboratory 
I really find it interesting and it really amaze me


I also want to be a motivational speaker
Either for public benefits or religion purposes 


There is so much doing round my head...


I just hope I do my best for SPM and I pray for my friends too to give their best...
Cause I believe they can do it!

Why you must evangelize?




It was chilly in Manhattan but warm inside the Starbucks shop on 51st Street and Broadway, just a skip up from Times Square. Early November weather in New York City holds only the slightest hint of the bitter chill of late December and January, but it's enough to send the masses crowding indoors to vie for available space and warmth.

For a musician, it's the most lucrative Starbucks location in the world, I'm told, and consequently, the tips can be substantial if you play your tunes right. Apparently, we were striking all the right chords that night, because our basket was almost overflowing.

It was a fun, low-pressure gig - I was playing keyboard and singing backup for my friend who also added rhythm with an arsenal of percussion instruments. We mostly did pop songs from the '40s to the '90s with a few original tunes thrown in.
During our emotional rendition of the classic, "If You Don't Know Me by Now," I noticed a lady sitting in one of the lounge chairs across from me. She was swaying to the beat and singing along.

After the tune was over, she approached me. "I apologize for singing along on that song. Did it bother you?" she asked.

"No," I replied. "We love it when the audience joins in. Would you like to sing up front on the next selection?" To my delight, she accepted my invitation. "You choose," I said. "What are you in the mood to sing?" "Well. .... Do you know any hymns?" Hymns? This woman didn't know who she was dealing with. I cut my teeth on hymns. Before I was even born, I was going to church. I gave our guest singer a knowing look. "Name one." "Oh, I don't know. There are so many good ones. You pick one." "Okay," I replied. "How about 'His Eye is on the Sparrow'?"

My new friend was silent, her eyes averted. Then she fixed her eyes on mine again and said, "Yeah. Let's do that one."

She slowly nodded her head, put down her purse, straightened her jacket and faced the center of the shop. With my two-bar setup, she began to sing, "Why should I be discouraged? Why should the shadows come?"

The audience of coffee drinkers was transfixed. Even the gurgling noises of the cappuccino machine ceased as the employees stopped what they were doing to listen. The song rose to its conclusion. "I sing because I'm happy; I sing because I'm free. For His eye is on the sparrow And I know He watches me."

When the last note was sung, the applause crescendoed to a deafening roar that would have rivaled a sold-out crowd at Carnegie Hall.

Embarrassed, the woman tried to shout over the din, "Oh, y'all go back to your coffee! I didn't come in here to do a concert! I just came in here to get somethin' to drink, just like you!" But the ovation continued.. I embraced my new friend. "You, my dear, have made my whole year! That was beautiful!"

"Well, it's funny that you picked that particular hymn," she said. "Why is that?"

"Well . .." she hesitated again, "that was my daughter's favorite song."

"Really!" I exclaimed. "Yes," she said, and then grabbed my hands.

By this time, the applause had subsided and it was business as usual.. "She was 16. She died of a brain tumor last week." I said the first thing that found its way through my stunned silence. "Are you going to be okay?"

She smiled through tear-filled eyes and squeezed my hands. "I'm gonna be okay. I've just got to keep trusting the Lord and singing his songs, and everything's gonna be just fine."

She picked up her bag, gave me her card, and then she was gone. Was it just a coincidence that we happened to be singing in that particular coffee shop on that particular November night? Coincidence that this wonderful lady just happened to walk into that particular shop? Coincidence that of all the hymns to choose from, I just happened to pick the very hymn that was the favorite of her daughter, who had died just the week before? I refuse to believe it.

God has been arranging encounters in human history since the beginning of time, and it's no stretch for me to imagine that he could reach into a coffee shop in midtown Manhattan and turn an ordinary gig into a revival. It was a great reminder that if we keep trusting him and singing his songs, everything's gonna be okay.

The next time you feel like GOD can't use YOU, just remember...

Noah was a drunk, 
Abraham was too old, I
saac was a daydreamer, 
Jacob was a liar, 
Leah was ugly, 
Joseph was abused, 
Moses had a stuttering problem, 
Gideon was afraid, 
Samson had long hair and was a womanizer, 
Rahab was a prostitute, 
Jeremiah and Timothy were too young, 
David had an affair and was a murderer, 
Elijah was suicidal, 
Isaiah preached naked, 
Jonah ran from God, 
Naomi was a widow, 
Job went bankrupt, 
John the Baptist ate bugs, 
Peter denied Christ, 
The Disciples fell asleep while praying, 
Martha worried about everything, 
The Samaritan woman was divorced, more than once,
Zaccheus was too small, 
Paul was too religious, 
Timothy had an ulcer... 
AND Lazarus was dead!



No more excuses now!! God can use you to your full potential. Besides you aren't the message, you are just the messenger.

What does it really this feeling mean?

I'm referring to this feeling I had today in church...more like during mass

At the the beginning of mass...i was feeling alright...great and happy

especially after CFM did a great sketch of Peter Chanel patron saint of New Zealand

Today's gospel reading was 

Luke 9:51-62

This passage really struck me and it kinda rhymm

"Foxes have holes,and birds have nests,but the Son of Man has no place to lie down and rest"

Father Chris shared his story

during his time in India he missed the bus...so he had to sleep at d train station over night

then in Spain(i'm not so sure about this)he had to sleep at d apartment corridor 

This passage or verse really struck me in terms of joining the missionary

(I'm still discovering myself)

I have many doubts and fear

But the thought of joining d missionary will bring me real joy and love to my life

And then there is also d thought of having a family which i never experience before

The kind of love a dad would give his son or daughter

I want to share my love with the partner of my life

To be able to share my happiness, joy, despair, and hardship together

I really do want to experience this emotion or feeling

I've never really experience being in love with someone yet...

I have this saying

"How can I love someone which I can't see when I cant love someone I can see"

I told someone this before...he replied me by saying

"Well, that is where your faith takes place"

It's actually easier said then done

The bible says 

"How can you say that you love Me but you don't love your brother"

(when the bible says "your brother" it meant His creation)

doesn't it has d same meaning as mine??

this doesn't mean that I want to have a relationship so that I can say I love even more God

i'm trying to say that i want to discover myself giving up everything and be a disciple of God

there is a Brother which told me his story who thought him to love God

It was his girlfriend

and his girlfriend was really supportive of him joining the Brotherhood

Father Chris said that

"are you willing to give up everything? Your property, wealth, comfort to follow God?"

and he talk about his challenges of joining the Priesthood

He waited 8 years to be finally being accepted

So when Father Chris finish his homily

I suddenly had this feeling which I can't explain

so i juz follow the mass

When I receive the Eucharist and went back to my place to pray

everything was fine

then I sad down and waited for the other to receive the Communion 

suddenly this feeling struck me again

but it was nothing compared to d feeling I first had

It was like this sense of questioning my decision i've taken

It felt like God was asking me

"Why my son. Why don't you trust Me at this time. Wasn't I with you when you needed my help and didnt I answer your pray?"

"Your know this feeling which you are experiencing now. You know that  when you proclaim my word you are filled with joy"

During that time...my heart was heavy and beating irregularly and I kept staring at the Crucifix 

trying to find the answer to my feelings

it was something like that...its was also like this sense of  regret why did I ever have doubts in Jesus Christ.

When He was always there for me when I needed Him most..

But where was I when He need me to proclaim His Good News

I cant really explain this feeling which I had...I hope that those who read this will pray for me..

to not have doubts in the Lord but trust him in everything He has plan for me

L2M (2010) Experience

there was a camp organised by Malacca-Johor Diocese or MAJODI...

it was held at MAJODI Centre,Plentong,Johor from 10-13 June

It was a Youth Leadership Conference

On my way to MAJODI Centre it was raining...and u guess right..it was v cold...

when i entered d hall...i was shock to see ard 450+ participant from various churches and languages

there were tamil,chinese and,english apostolic all over johor,malacca and KL!

it was an AWESOME CAMP!!

we had mind blowing,inspiring and fantastic sessions...

many of the speakers inspired me...one of them are

Jude Antoine

his a full time missionary

(it has a special name for it but i don't noe it^^)

anyway...

he goes ard d world spreading the Good News

besides that he also helps d outcast

for example prostitute,drug addict and street childrens

he said that

evangelizing is not only about converting people

but helping others also.

he also say tat he doesnt get any salary

i was shock

cuz he had 2 daughters and a wife

doesnt he need to fed them?

but he said tat God has been v generous and kind wit him

his been in d missonary for 20+years..

but there werent any problem abt putting food on d table for him children

I was so amaze and inspired by him

he change my mind concept totally

his sessions/praying over was amazing

then there was Sherman Kuek

his v funny and honest

his a convert from d protestant

he was a pastor

he went to rome to have a conference with d other christian missionary

he was inpired by Father Romeo

(cheesy name??yea i noe)^^

he was so amaze and touch by Father Romeo

then he went back to malacca

then he was posted to a pastor missionary centre

he wasnt teaching protestant but CATECHISM

thats how he lost his job in 2 years

there were Desmond Ho also

his session was about Understanding Islam

Not forgetting D AMAZING PRAISE AND WORSHIP SESSION

conducted by BROTHER.B

it was D BEST PNW I EVER ATTENDED

d songs selection are v nice and cool

and then there was talent night

althought my group was cut off

but we manage to put up a gd show

for me d best talent night performance was d indian apostolic group

I NEVER THOUGHT I COULD JUMP SHOUT AND DANCE TO AN INDIAN SONG ^^

everybody did a good job though

people at the camp was fun and cool

they were v cooperative hahaha

my final words are..

i wanna thank everyone who help organise and make L2M a GREAT SUCCESS

bcuz of u guys

many lifes have change

for the best and not worst

thank u so much

AND I WILL MISS L2M FOREVER!!!