Dilemma I guess

So many things are going through my head right now
Actually I'm a bit troubled by all these problems

My mom went to d Parent-Teachers day to collect my report card
I found out that I failed 6 out of 10 subjects
I am so bloody worried right now about my future
What the hell am I going to do with my life with this kind of results
Plus my mom was extremely upset with my results
I really feel very bad
So she decided to take away my broadband meaning I can't on9 as often as I used too
I guess it is good also lah....so I can start to concentrate on my studies already
Time is really running out and I really need to run those books for the sake of my future and my mom
She sacrificed so much for me and my family
I got to repay her some how

Legion of Mary camp is coming and my friend aka president (Glenn Jude Kang)
asked me to give a talk
He'll give me a session around one and half hours
I was over joyed and was very anxious for this moment to come
Cause I feel that one day I want to be a speaker to tell the world what the Lord has done for me
I feel the urge to spread the good news to everyone
But some how I feel that I shouldn't give a talk because I'm not ready and i don't know what to say
I feel that my talk must motivate, inspire, touch and change people lives
Or maybe their perception towards life, the world, and their religion
Like how other speakers have open my eyes wide
example Jude Antoine, Sherman Kuek, Adrian Ng, Brother B, Brother Ambrose, Bro. Mic and many more
The have dedicated their life to God and for a good clause

Finally I think I might be falling for a girl
I know its the worst time possible
SPM is coming
And I don't like falling in love cause it will make me lose focus on everything and I'll be in a dazzle for a long time
I think the best is not to think about her and focus on my SPM

Finally

JESUS LOVES YOU