In Hard Times

I told my very close friend, a mentor actually, that I SERIOUSLY NEED A JOB! I wasn't going to lay back and do nothing for the next year or two. I will die of starvation. I would really prefer my job to be church related. I wanted to grow spiritually and in life. Working life I mean. Then my prayers was answered when a very close friend told me that there was an opening in Counselling Ministry. It was like the ideal job. 3 hours a day, 5 days a week, flexible working hours and most importantly, THE COUNSELLING MINISTRY. I mean its really related to the course I'm going to take in future. FYI (its psychology). I mean, for all the jobs in the world, I got Counselling Ministry?! Well I know of course I won't be able to counsel people, but I'll be able to learn about counselling from the retreats and all. Not forgetting being able to journey with a priest. It was amazing, a dream come true. I had to take a bus to Johor Baru alone then sit a bus ride from Larkin to Plentong. It was a TWO HOURS, I repeat, TWO HOURS! Despite all of that I was so excited for the interview and meeting up the the priest, until the interview too place. I told everything I need to tell the priest, then he broke all my my spirit and enthusiasm by telling me he needs a Johorian, and also a retired man. I was so hard broken. All that effort and enthusiasm, all wash away. I felt God was closing all the doors on me. Everything I dream and wish for, it wasn't there. How can that be? God will always grant our deepest desires, but why didn't He grant my desires? I was so down. I kept thinking and thinking, then I realize that God does want to grant our deepest desire, and also He want whats best for us. We might think that our desire is the best for us, but then we must think again, WHO created us? WHO is the ALPHA and the OMEGA? None other then JESUS CHRIST? Who knows us best?

I know that God is closing all the doors on me now, but he'll open a window for me soon. I believe and trust Him that He will not abandon me for He loves me dearly and He want whats best for me. Don't you God? =)

God Closes A Door and Opens A Window Instead

~Peace out~